When you feel depressed, awareness does not cheer you up.
When you screw up at work, awareness does not say you’ll do better next time.
When you yell at your kids, awareness does not help you calm down.
When hit a car in parking lot and drive away, awareness does not forgive you.
When you are unfaithful to your spouse, awareness does not justify it.
When you steal some bread from the grocery store, awareness does not take away the guilt.
When you lose a loved one to cancer, awareness does not bring them back.
When you have spent your last penny, awareness does not put money in your account.
When your desperate for a spiritual awakening, awareness does not make it happen.
Awareness is always just…..there.
Doing nothing. Helping no one. Changing nothing for the better.
It is the source of all inaction.
Instead it is infinitely loyal. It will never leave you no matter what despicable act emerges from you. It knows nothing about judgement. It knows nothing of worthiness. It knows nothing about evil. It knows nothing of heaven or hell. It knows nothing about death. It knows nothing about suffering.
It knows nothing.
It is not there to heal you. It is not there to make you live longer. It is not there to make others love you.
So what in the world is awareness good for.
There is one way to find out. And that is to align with it. Be a witness to your perceptions. Open yourself up to feel whatever is brought to the forefront in the field of your observation. Let it wander. Do not focus on any witnessed feeling as more important than another. Allow this freedom to dwell in your mind and body.
If you are walking, listen to the pebbles crunch on the ground as feel the pressure of each step. Notice your head moving from side to side looking at the trees. All of a sudden you turn off the road and onto a walking path. Why did you do that? You don’t recall making that choice. Now you notice each leg moving one after the other. You’re not actively choosing that either. A random thought pops into your head that you should eat healthier.
You didn’t decide to think that. Things are happening and you don’t seem to be involved in any part of the process.
Soon you start to notice everything. The way your tongue is resting in your mouth. The way the cool spring breeze is making your eyes water just ever so slightly. The rising of your stomach with every breath.
Then it suddenly strikes you.
I am none of this.
Such intense witnessing has released you. You begin the understand the role of the witness. Your dreams. Your hopes. Your struggles. Your judgement. Your accomplishments. Your failures. Your suffering. All of these things are not “You”. They have simply been witnessed by “You”.
Now, even more dramatically. All of the ways in which you have defined who “You” are begins to fade away. The simple gap between something being inherent to your identity, to simply being observed, causes a cascading avalanche of the former self into oblivion.
Ultimately the realization hits. The me that has ruled this life, does not exist. There is no meat to this ego. There are no obstacles for me to overcome. There are no requirements for my existence. There is nothing that was there before.
There is only awareness.