What is real? How do you define real? – Morpheus
Not only a line from a great movie, but also the topic of my wonderings for the last day. As I was sitting in traffic yeterday, mind wandering, thoughts arising, words and images coming to be, I had a piercing realization. Specifically about an image that was repeatedly coming into my head. Nothing bad, in fact probably the exact opposite. It’s right there as if I can see it with my own two eyes. I can easily describe it’s shape and colour.
But am I really seeing anything at all?
What is it that makes up this vision? There is definitely a feeling to it. A good feeling. It is quickly followed by overlaying thoughts building up it’s complexity. But I keep thinking there is no real picture in my brain at all. I am not “seeing” anything!
From the best I can tell this image is born completely out of energy. I would almost say energy created by me but since energy cannot be created nor destroyed I would have to say it is shaped by me. That energy is then interpreted by my brain to create an image or thought. Unchecked this leads to more thoughts and more images like a runaway train.
If you interpret your thoughts as good, then no big deal (for the moment), if not – uh oh!
A negative association with the energy you’ve shaped will then motivate you to try to justify why that the image appeared, why it does not define you, why it is untrue, and then push it away. This is energy versus energy. Of course, the more fuel you supply the more out of control the fire gets.
If you are anxious about flying, like me, that initial energy would be shaped into an image of myself sitting on a plane followed very quickly by thoughts of not wanting to be there, images of plane crashes, and feelings of claustraphobia. All born out of the energy I put into creating that initial image of a plane.
That’s a nice realization to have but what does it mean?
Initially this meant a new place to start when trying to be the observer of my thoughts. As I have read from many spiritual teachers, being the witness of your thoughts rather than getting wrapped up in them is key to finding peace. However, I have always had trouble with this. Being the witness of my own energy is much easier I find. There is no content to deal with and this process has brought me deep into my own body. I actually seem to difuse the energy when I do this.
Escaping this energy also functions as a window for the inherent energy of life to flow through me. When you shape your own energy it’s like you’re going against the flow of life. Nothing is needed. Just let the energy of life guide you in all that you do.